letting go.

I should know you enough to understand the fact that i'll never be your cup of tea no matter how long no matter how hard.
Its just, loving you and having you around are basically two very different matters.
To love you, and yearn for you is not something i can control, at least not easily.
But can I be just this selfish to say that i want you around, regardless of who you are to me?
i dont want you to be the kind of friend who steps into my life and leaves at some point in time.
you may think the reason i want you around is because of how i feel about you.

Well, perhaps. That reason and so many many more.

Fame - Try

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me
If i ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me
The world is catching up to you
While your running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

But i'm trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough


god im hooked to this.
Now i HAVE to watch fame because of this song.
haha

great time, great show

how do you describe what this feels like. a day of breaking rules, breaking more rules.. killing ants and killing more ants.
its like, im totally numb to the fact that i have to suddenly book in tml to sign 3 extras for nothing.
its like, totally ecstatic, euphoric..
is this how being high feels like?
but its been almost 24 hours since....

great wind, great time, great show, great company.
yet somehow when i think about it i cant pinpoint anything spectacular, anything but...
what on earth is this feeling.

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i know i shouldn't be feeling this way, not after so much and so long.
but i just can't help it...
to put it simply, it makes even breaking the law feel so right.
someone kill me.